Truth as a beauty serum

I wrote this months and months ago, just found it in my closet of unpublished words. I dusted them off because the timing seems perfetto (practicing my italiano. Leave me alone lol). 

I remember a moment in 2018 where I found myself in my most lean, vibrant body in a long time. 

Sol was 17 months ish, and we were living our usual global-galavanting-style life. 

People were commenting, ‘wow, you look so good’ and ‘dam did your waist shrink?’

I enjoyed these compliments, and I won’t pretend I didn’t. In this environment, it’s liberating to say out loud that yes, I do enjoy being my natural build. I feel most myself, more alive, more vibrant when I’m not carrying extra waste and weight than feels good to me. 

It felt nice to receive those compliments for another reason though– it wasn’t vanity that had me light up in the inside. It was something else. I felt alive. I felt more in my power than I had in a long time. I felt aligned. I felt clear. This is what people were commenting on. They weren’t saying ‘wow you look good’, because I had a small waist, but a low and depleted life force. They weren’t saying ‘wow you look good’ because I was light and lean, but wearing a face that told the story of unhappiness and despair. It was an overall energy, a state of being, they were commenting on.

This is what felt good.

What felt even better was that it came out of nowhere. I wondered to myself ‘dam, is it the celery juice? Must be. Is it the reformer pilates? Is it that I’m so creatively alive that I’m naturally not picking on foods I don’t really want or need?’ 

Maybe a mix of all of those things. Sure, celery juice is amazing for the lymph, for the skin. 

But I knew what it was. 

It was honesty. 

In that period, I made the call to end a big business collaboration. It was a super exciting project and one that I’d worked hard on for the entire year. I even launched it publicly, told thousands about it. Hundreds of thousands had been spent on it, as well as plentiful time and energy. 

I remember the day I posted about it on social media. I was excited, but that feeling was there of ‘this isn’t right’. It was like the conversation happening on my insides was saying ‘go ahead and post this, because it’s part of your process, but it’s not going ahead.’ You know those moments when you know, something isn’t right but at the same time you know you also have to go through your process? 

I made the call to end it all. Even though so, so much work had been done. It was no longer in alignment, for anyone involved. The companies, the people, and me. The relief I felt in my body was the greatest evidence I could’ve ever asked for. 

During this month, there was a series of 3 hard decisions I needed to make for my energetic health. 

My body responded to this, by coming into greater internal alignment. 

Living an aligned life, directly affects our tissues, our nervous system our gut, our lymphatics… we know this. Our emotional and energetic health are completely entwined with our biology. So when we come into more alignment, and integrate more with our personal power, our body will show it. 

There’s a difference between being super stressed, misaligned, undereating and dropping loads of weight. This isn’t a loving act of strengthening our life force. ‘Dropping weight’ is not the point here. Increasing life force and coming into more energetic, biological and emotional harmony is. 

“You look so good” is an energetic compliment. 

I taught a module inside of ‘The Field’ titled ‘the spirituality of hotness’, and this is what I mean. 

People have come to disassociate ‘physical radiance’ with ‘energetic health’... and yet the two go together like me and Ibiza (very, very well). 

It is ok to feel good when others see that in you which is radiant.

It is not always a surface level compliment. Often, they’re seeing that in you which you have worked diligently on– the inner work, the big decisions, the way you continuously unkink all that’s blocking your life force. 

Your energetic health is your greatest radiance product.

Your inner alignment is your greatest lymph circulator.

Your truth is your best beauty serum. 

I move my body everyday because I love how I feel when my cells are alive. I love the mental sharpness I feel when I intentionally turn my body on and let her know I am committed to my relationship with her. I love the devotional practice of treating my body like the house of heaven that she is. I love moving through the world in a body that is resilient, nimble and flexible so I can navigate the world in that way. I love moving my body as a way to process emotions. I love moving stagnant energy and creating inner clarity. 

As you can see, I’ve been exploring truth as your best beauty serum for a while now. 

House of Heaven begins this Thursday. There’s room for you, and a cozy spot in the Hot Spring (the telegram sanctuary alone is a 4 figure investment typically, but in this round, it’s yours at no extra cost). It’s lush. Relaxing. Nothing to prove, all to receive. 

Feel. I trust you. 

Pk xxx