The trance of deficiency— an intro.

I exited a biz coaching container earlier this year with time still left to go. I paid in full. 

I told the amazing woman that I have everything I need— family, resources, creativity, community & that what I want most now is to purify the input coming into my field, so that I can remember my richness and stop looking for more of what I already have. 

I didn’t care about squeezing the value out of the container, because what was more important to me than getting more, was being with what I had. 

I’ve made investments from sound, calm places and also from emotional sugar highs. I’ve invested from a habitual trance of deficiency, or in a desperate moment of ‘I need that’, learning the expensive way again and again that I didn’t. 

I learned the nuances of how ‘the trance of deficiency’ nudges me off my purest path and into decisions, creations, habits, conversations, stories, behaviours that take me on a detours.

This trance of deficiency had me creating things to offer that weren’t truly aligned because of the seduction of big and fast. 

This trance of deficiency had me feeling I needed a higher monthly income even though I had everything I needed, and no use for more. Even though the hot thing is more more more and we’re having a great time with quantum mechanics… my soul’s truth is ‘not necessary for you’. 

This trance of deficiency had me over-eating even when my body was full, because more was always better than enough, even if it means being overburdened. 

This trance of deficiency had me buying programs in search of something I thought I needed, but didn’t. So they remained in my inbox cremating without ever having opened them. 

This trance of deficiency is a setting that can be turned on or off and you can be lost in the trance even when you have absolutely everything you ever wanted. 

We don’t need to master the upward swing of more. Many of us got that one in the bag. The work of this new time, is mastering blissful homeostasis according to the simplicity and richness our soul truly wants…. Not the grandiosity we think we need. 

We don’t need to prove our infinity. 

But perhaps we do need to prove, that we understand what bounty truly is. 

I’ll go deeper into this this week in my paid subscription of the pk diaries, as well as in an upcoming class. 

Pk. X