The energy only truth can bring.

I have new energy
so much of it
and it didn’t come
from breathwork
or cold plunging
or matcha
or colonics
or cleansing
or even the fact
that my toddler
is nearly 3 and just starting
to sleep through…
I’m alive
because I’m
telling the truth
to myself
with a purity
that was previously
contaminated
by all the
wronging
shaming
stories about
how wrong it was
to want what I really want
not what the ‘conscious natural mumma’
should want
But what I, the rogue
wild
roaming
free
curious
bored
excited
woman wants
We think we’re
owning all of who we are
that there are no white lies inside
but we know the truth
by our energy, or lack of
by our peace, or lack of
by our ability to be with life
without feeling like
we’re missing out on our true one
‘They’ told me I was unsettled
because of my
Insatiable desire to touch the world
with my kids and create home
in more than one place,
this nature of mine,
the most precious thing about me…
and yet a teeny bit of me believed
them, until I admitted
that no, none of me does.
When I took my preciousness back,
I took my life back.
We are only unsettled
when we’re trying to settle
in a life
In desires
In wishes
In an identity
That are not ours.
And when we tell the truth
about who we are
what we want
how we feel
what we know
and what is most
gorgeously precious in us
then we can also tell the
most important truth of
our lives….
There is nothing wrong with
me at all.
And now, I can live my life.
~ Peta Kelly