All the clever ways you hide.

I made something for you to feel on fire again.

If you’re anything like me, you lost yourself a little.

You let the loud and relentless cultural noises make you so internally confused that it paralysed you.

You let your humility become a chokehold.

You hid yourself and you gifts and told yourself it was integrity.

You came up with so many sophisticated ways to hide that even someone as self aware as you couldn’t see yourself doing it:

You researched and analysed and bought courses and did everything but the one thing you know you needed to do.

You told yourself you were a better mum than all of those other women who still expressed themselves boldly and came alive while mothering.

You told yourself you were waiting on the voice of God to give you the nod that you could go after your creative desires…. Forgetting that God is the one who gave them to you.

You told yourself it was too crowded. That social media is dead. That a truly content and devoted woman and mother doesn’t ‘do things like that’.

Whenever you go to say something online you talk yourself out of it. You weigh up the cost of public opinion and decide it isn’t worth it.

You think about all the ways your message might be wrong one day, how cringe you are, and how you don’t need any of this social media nonsense anyway.

When you feel that hot fiery creative energy surge in you and you decide to hit record and film yourself sharing it, you do it beautifully the first time, but then you do 30 more takes and decide to leave it all in drafts.

You let the voices of low life strangers on social media scare you out of saying what you truly believed.

You started to believe that they all deserve a voice, but not you. You’re blessed enough anyway.

You handed your creative territory over to strangers and you justified it to yourself.

Until you felt your aliveness slowly dwindle.

You become impatient with your kids.

If you’re honest with yourself, your mental health took a hit too.

Because a woman’s creative territory is God given.

And when we hand it over to others or pretend it doesn’t matter— it hurts. It really hurts.

You don’t need to have a social media presence to be fully expressed. But you do need to resolve the conflicts inside of you that are at odds.

You’re scrolling. You’re just not speaking.

One drains you. The other gives you life.

I have walked the walk of being an ON FIRE voice of authority, to hiding myself with brilliantly sophisticated strategies.

Sometimes it was truly a season for me to be quiet and removed. Other times, I hid and I called it integrity, peace, and even faith.

I will be sharing a series of posts like this over the next week and beyond, so that you can feel seen in the way you are chomping for your own creative renaissance.

I’m also sharing them to celebrate my own. My fire is back.

I also sat and recorded three hours of me ripping into the camera heart-to-heart, for those who really wanna come alive creatively again and now.

I did it so that you can reclaim your creative territory in this fresh season of your life.

I share my own intimate story of how paralysed I become by external noise, including cultural christianity.

I share the sophisticated ways us clever women hide even though it’s hurting.

I share internal beliefs that may be at odds within you that need resolution in order for you to move forward, exquisitely free.

I share all the ways you might be trying to make yourself a certain ‘type of person’ you’ve seen online and usher you back to your honest, incomparable voice.

I remind you that your children are regulated by your aliveness— and that we self abandon too much, it’s burdensome for our children.

And so, so much more.

This is not a course. It’s a loving pep talk. An intimate heart-to-heart.

Plus, I wrote down 39 SUPER honest questions to help you draw a line under the patterns that keep you shrinking.

If you only read my posts and never buy anything I offer, I know you’ll get sharp bits of insight anyway. I make sure that even in a ‘launch’, the emails and posts are so full of goodness that even those who don’t buy can be moved.

So whether you want my new class or not, strap in because this next week of posts are going to be fire.

The class called ‘TERRITORY’ is right here. It’s at a special price for a week.

Lotsa Love,

PK X

“You have changed the whole trajectory of my life over three hours. I did not expect that.”

KP

“I am so grateful I invested and got to spend three hours with you. Exactly what I needed to hear.”

LW